For some reason, I just feel happy right now, even though there's really nothing to be happy about.
Usually I'm utterley clueless about how I'm feeling or what I'm feeling, but I'm just... cheerful at the moment. Although my collarbone's broken, I just got in another argument with my mom, my science and math grades are still Bs, my room's messy, and I can't bake, I just feel kind of happy.
Maybe I'm just at one of those points where everything's so messed up that I can't help but to be happy.
Just this morning, I was all gloom and doom because I overslept and felt like a lazy lump of goop. I just sat there neglecting everything I should have done and watched episodes of Katekyo Hitman Reborn on youtube instead.
It might be the nighttime atmosphere. The calming breeze that just blows in along with the nice smell of the cold, crisp air. Or maybe that the only source of light I have right now is my fluorescent lamp, laptop, and the weird red-colored sky.
Actually, looking back at all I've done recently or even within this past month, there's absolutely nothing to me happy about. I wish I was psycho-analytical like Katrina so I could read and decipher my own mind, or completely outright with everything I feel like Tina. But I'm not.
And maybe, that's why I'm so happy:]
Saturday, May 23, 2009
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well maybe you're happy for others, or you could be so sad you're happy...or yea, the night air is very calming..it definitely helped me to calm down tonight...i'll tell you the story laters :D ...but you should be happy{spectrum next weekend, summer is almost here:D.. always be happy<3 ahh sorry couldnt help it...>.<}
ReplyDeleteI guess we all have those moments. Where we sit back and look back on how silly our lives are - how weird the nature of life is, without questioning it. Maybe it has to do with the three day weekend, the sweet liberation. Maybe it has to do with just accepting reality for what it is and not giving the effort to regret, or feel sad.
ReplyDeleteTo just exist. :D
Wow this reply died. I have no idea what it's supposed to be but main point is:
I'M HAPPY YOU'RE HAPPY. :D