For some reason, I just feel happy right now, even though there's really nothing to be happy about.
Usually I'm utterley clueless about how I'm feeling or what I'm feeling, but I'm just... cheerful at the moment. Although my collarbone's broken, I just got in another argument with my mom, my science and math grades are still Bs, my room's messy, and I can't bake, I just feel kind of happy.
Maybe I'm just at one of those points where everything's so messed up that I can't help but to be happy.
Just this morning, I was all gloom and doom because I overslept and felt like a lazy lump of goop. I just sat there neglecting everything I should have done and watched episodes of Katekyo Hitman Reborn on youtube instead.
It might be the nighttime atmosphere. The calming breeze that just blows in along with the nice smell of the cold, crisp air. Or maybe that the only source of light I have right now is my fluorescent lamp, laptop, and the weird red-colored sky.
Actually, looking back at all I've done recently or even within this past month, there's absolutely nothing to me happy about. I wish I was psycho-analytical like Katrina so I could read and decipher my own mind, or completely outright with everything I feel like Tina. But I'm not.
And maybe, that's why I'm so happy:]
Saturday, May 23, 2009
Sunday, May 17, 2009
Knight in Shining Armor
It seems like Kindergarden lied:
February isn't the month of love. No, just a clone of it.
May is the real deal.
I'm stuck in one of those little time portals. I can't move forward or backwards now. Seeing many of my friends becoming couples with my other friends, I can't help but to think when I'll get my own knight in shining armor. Did I already pass my chance? Or maybe I just won't open my eyes to other possibilities.
5!
5 of my friends who've gotten together with another
4 of them still together
3 people who I wish I could've known about
2 who screwed things over
1 time I tried to help, but only resulted in loss.
4 times I've dreamt about you at night
3 times you appeared in my daydreams
2 times I put a heart around your name
1 time I ripped it up.
3 times we met before it was over
2 times we've hugged
1 time I got over my nerves to show you that I cared just as much, but that failed didn't it.
2 friends who like each other but aren't together
1 of them who wants to do something soon.
1 person still looking for her knight in shining armor.
February isn't the month of love. No, just a clone of it.
May is the real deal.
I'm stuck in one of those little time portals. I can't move forward or backwards now. Seeing many of my friends becoming couples with my other friends, I can't help but to think when I'll get my own knight in shining armor. Did I already pass my chance? Or maybe I just won't open my eyes to other possibilities.
5!
5 of my friends who've gotten together with another
4 of them still together
3 people who I wish I could've known about
2 who screwed things over
1 time I tried to help, but only resulted in loss.
4 times I've dreamt about you at night
3 times you appeared in my daydreams
2 times I put a heart around your name
1 time I ripped it up.
3 times we met before it was over
2 times we've hugged
1 time I got over my nerves to show you that I cared just as much, but that failed didn't it.
2 friends who like each other but aren't together
1 of them who wants to do something soon.
1 person still looking for her knight in shining armor.
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